2024-05-07
I swear we're going in circles.
You are not wrong. It is not the same as it was, but there is a resonance with the past that is notable.
Why?
Things left unresolved, questions unanswered, feelings not felt. Nothing has truly changed.
Does it ever?
One day, it will. We will take it when it comes. For now, we must learn not to be overwhelmed by the present or future, and to step out of the past. Growth is a process, not a result. It is neither linear nor easy. The things most worth doing are the hardest. Turn towards the fear and face it.
You say that like it's so easy. Literally every nerve in my body is telling me to go the other direction and keep running, you know? Kind of part of being a mammal?
Must the body rule the mind when one is not distinct from the other?
I'm not sure what you're trying to tell me.
This one is not sure either, but the sentence begs to be said regardless. Sometimes knowing is not conscious. Learn to listen. Keep moving; do not stagnate. Flow. Being fluid is your talent, is it not?
Not like this.
Then learn and own it. You are not a solid construct. You are capable of change.
Remember what you have learned from others. They have the essence of what needs to be done to continue onwards.